Well today I finally started a notebook. I need to be writing and I posted a while ago I was going to keep some of Lotus’ words in my notebook when I got to writing again, so here it is on the inside page for me to flip back to when I forget. I didn’t abbreviate this passage at all, I wrote down every “let’s never stop” because it is about never stopping, not just the list of things we should be talking about and this feels important so /I’m talking about it./
This is the original post since I know you cant read it for yourself from the picture (http://shutl0w.tumblr.com/post/39192198823/blessing)
That Taylor Swift/Avril lavigne mash up played on 8tracks though so that made my morning a lot better because it made me think of what Elise said something like, it sounds like part of a pop drama about lesbian lovers.
I’m trying not to be all “ugh work” yet about this job but when you have to get up early to spend an hour on the bus and usually take the bus back it sucks because you literally have 3 hours to yourself when you get home and then you have to get up to do it all over again. I just have to keep reminding myself that if I stick out the next couple of weeks taking phone calls wont feel as overwhelming (yes that’s what I do all day and I /still/ can’t order takeout via phone). Plus I can basically pay rent in two weeks worth of pay so that’s good… Worth it I’m not so sure though but I’ll keep on going I guess. And even now I’ve spent “too much time” writing this post and it’s only 7am -__-edit: and only a few people understand how taking phone calls feels to me like Jer and Haley who also works there so it’s hard when people say, well atl east your job is easy because it’s not for me but I’m trying to expand my comfort level and ugh some people and ugh work :/
I was exhausted yesterday after I got home. I was trying to finish windup bird chronicles when my eyes drooped and I kept falling asleep. I probably still have twenty pages left but I when I woke up it was dark out, about 8:30, feel asleep again and it was 10. While I like sleep 12 hours is excessive and it kept me from making my lunch, finishing my book, cleaning my room. Now I’m in this spot where Im frustrated with myself/my body for doing that to me but I’m also trying to remember that productivity isn’t everything especially when you are already to the point of exhaustion. I think it was caused by shopping so long trying to find certain things and getting really frustrated/anxious about it. Hopefully the commute to work will clear my head a bit.
~~dancing in the kitchen
Still Into You (Paramore Cover) - Chelsea
okay so I’ve been going through the submissions for Paramore’s Paraoke competition for this song. they say you can sing it from the track or make another arrangement and out of the twenty or so videos I’ve watched tonight Chelsea’s arrangement is my favorite because the originally is a super poppy song she slows it down and made it even more enjoyable to listen to.
gushy mushy feelings